Mental Health, Uncategorized

I am a Sum of My Parts

I’m sure most people by now have seen the Disney/Pixar filmĀ Inside Out, or at least know about its premise. In the film, characters are represented as a system run by a set of emotions: Joy, Sadness, Fear, Anger, and Disgust. This is, of course, a simplified version of the way our minds work, but it gets a point across about how the different parts of our personalities work.

This Week, I Learned That I Am A Sum Of My Parts

In my brain, there are a lot of voices governing my thoughts and feelings. In my case, there are some entities who are more in control than others. Keep in mind, this is not by any means a form of Dissociative Identity Disorder- in that condition, different personalities manifest as separate people independent of each other. These are all still parts of me. I identify them all as my own voice, just different aspects of such.

The issue I have is that some voices are most vocal than others. A good example of this is how inĀ Inside Out, some of Riley’s emotions go “missing,” leaving the others in charge. In my case, the emotions are there, but they get shouted down by their more dominant counterparts.

Last week, I was introduced to the Internal Family Systems theory, where different parts of your personality play different parts in your mind. These roles can have either a healthy or unhealthy balance. In my case, there are a few voices that are unfairly balanced. Cynic, as I call it, tends to work with Anxiety to run my mind, while effectively silencing the other voices. Through IFS therapy, however, I am trying to speak to all of my parts and see where they are all coming from, in an effort to create healthier balance.